listened to a song for the first time, you didn’t know exactly what the lyrics meant but you just knew that they meant something great? Then you listen to the song more and more and it grows to be one of your favorite songs. Now you know the lyrics. You sing them by heart… still, you don’t know what they mean, you just feel their power.
Then you start to connect with the lyrics, like you always knew you would. You start to get emotional singing them, yet still no real meaning connecting you to everything.
Then, one day… weeks, months, years after hearing this song you finally belt out the lyrics and as you sing them, they all just make perfect sense and you start crying as each word is uttered from your lips.
I’ve never had this happen before. I didn’t think I’d ever connect with a song like I did with this one. I’ve always been more into the drums or the background. Lyrics were just there so I didn’t sound stupid making guitar noises or drum noises with my mouth.
But now for the first time in my life, there’s a part of a song that means more to me than any other song have ever had the potential too. It almost felt like an epiphany as it all happened.
For someone weird reason, I couldn’t help but feel completely embarrassed. Sitting in my car in front of my house, eyes watering, music blaring.
It was definitely an abnormal moment in my life.
I tried looking up the meaning behind the song, having connected to it the way that I have. I could be completely misinterpreting it. The one thing I read said it was about a disconnection with Jesus. And that is definitely not the connection I’m drawing with it. I know everyone can draw their own meaning from something, but I can’t help but feeling like my interpretation is wrong. If that’s even possible.
The song is Addict with a Pen by Twenty One Pilots.